So many people have kindly asked: "How do you feel?" It's easy to answer on the physical level. Even though the cancer has been growing for many years I don't feel any different today now that I know! Of course, the emotional level is more complex. Three weeks today I have my surgery but each day of waiting seems wearingly longer than usual. Dark thoughts can break in and the sheer uncertainty of everything can puncture the hopefulness. And I know it is more difficult for Carol than for me as I continue to work. Teaching begins next Monday and I have a full schedule, including a day conference on January 21st. which positively fills this time of waiting.
However, on the spiritual level, which should hold together the physical and emotional, I do know God's love and encouragement. I am reminded that the Holy Spirit is not just the Comforter (a traditional translation of the Greek paraclete). He is certainly that , but he is the come-alongside Lord who enables us to cope with life courageously...and our waiting bravely. Part of the word comforter comes from fortis - which means brave. The Holy Spirit puts bravery, strength, iron and guts into living. That's the strength I am seeking to live by.
Thank you for all your messages, stories and prayers. We have been deeply moved by your support and shall keep you in the picture.