Looking at yesterday's posting I realize I could easily come across as someone who has risen gracefully above disappointment, and that Hope has utterly vanquished any frustration I might feel. That I am a poster boy for spiritual serenity!
I just need to put the record straight. I do believe in the bigger picture of God's hope with all the purpose that brings to the life of faith. But I have also been downright fed-up. Yes, honestly, the combination of continuous dull pain, strong drugs, confinement to chair and crutches, inability to access my study for nearly six weeks, has made me really really fed-up. And the unanswerable question about why this stupid accident had to happen sorely circles around - especially in the early morning hours.
So my experience of the progression of suffering - perseverance -character - hope is not a straight forward, shining journey. It continues to be a choppy one with ugly doses of fed-upness! I think that is probably how the development of continuous perseverance works to deepen character through bouts of fed-upness that are not allowed the last word.
Wonderfully, today, just as I needed to put the record right about my fed-upness Carol heard from her consultant that her colonoscopy yesterday proved to be clear of cancerous polyps. And that good news has made such a difference to my own journey of hope. Oh yes! Thank you, Lord.