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Two or three months after receiving the call to go to Blackburn I received another letter. This was from the Chairman of the Management Committee (which I was to learn was a powerful group in the life of the church). He wrote with much sadness he said. I had noticed when I last visited the church building that there were large patches of plaster missing on the upper walls and ceiling. No one mentioned that it was a problem. A major problem.
The letter told me that expert advice had now been sought and that dry rot was so very serious in the main church structure that the building was deemed past redemption. Many thousands of pounds would be needed to even attempt a repair but the damage was so extensive that success was unlikely. The church had been advised that the congregation would no longer be able to continue on the site. Demanding questions lay ahead that included whether a new church should be built elsewhere.
The Chairman wrote to release me from the call. As he put it, it seemed extremely unfair for a new young minister to enter commitment to ministry when such major problems lay ahead. Release from the call?
I wondered if you can be released from a call if God is truly in it? After all, He knew the future with its problems ahead of all of us. I know I was naive about much of this call - in fact I said yes to the church without any details about accommodation, pay, holidays etc. Contracts were rare in those days and frankly it seemed to me if God was in charge he would work it out. In the same spirit I replied that I believed I should still come to be the minister.
It really was one of the weird happenings in my weird life - receiving a call that I was later recommend to retract. In the interest of full disclosure building a new church inside the old did become one of the main visions of my seven year ministry and was to provide an amazing opportunity for sacrifice and mission. One of the newspaper headlines ran: Thank God for dry rot! because things happened on a scale that only God could organize. But that's getting into a new story.
Friday, July 17, 2020
Tuesday, July 14, 2020
Honesty about guidance 10)
Carol, in the early stages of pregnancy, shared in meeting friends and there were at least two sessions with church leaders and members. Compared with our earlier breezier visit this was obviously tougher. As I looked at the people we met, all much older than us, steeped in Lancastrian tradition, I new how raw we appeared.
The deacons and advistory group were to meet the next evening and on the service sheet in block capitals Tuesday February 8th. was highlighted for a special church and congregational meeting: This is to discuss the pastorate and everyone is requested to make a special effort to attend. (It was interesting to see how this church combined everyone into a congregational meeting, though voting was clearly the responsibility of members only). We returned home tired yet still with a sense that this could be the right place.
Having no 'phone we had to await the letter to tell me the outcome. I confess that I wondered how much prayer was happening - on both sides of this search for guidance. This has always bothered me because I know how easy it is for group think to occur when choosing a minister rather than God-think. When the letter arrived it confirmed that a majority of the members believed that I should become their next minister. All the leaders had voted Yes but 13 people had voted No and, much later on, some of them confided that they felt I was far too young to be taking on their complicated fellowship. However, the great majority said Yes and our hearts leapt for joy.
However, hearing this news my Area Superintendent tracked me down with urgency. He had heard that the previous minister was staying on in membership with his wife and family. Did I know that? Actually, I didn't. He told me how often a predecessor staying on could make trouble! Only a short time later he contacted me again: 'Forget what I said. I have just met your predecessor at our Area Superintendents' meeting - he is a marvellous man and my worries about you going to be with are groundless'. They did turn out to be groundless because he became a great friend and supporter.
You would think this guidance about my first church was now settled. Not so. A major crisis was yet to emerge.
The deacons and advistory group were to meet the next evening and on the service sheet in block capitals Tuesday February 8th. was highlighted for a special church and congregational meeting: This is to discuss the pastorate and everyone is requested to make a special effort to attend. (It was interesting to see how this church combined everyone into a congregational meeting, though voting was clearly the responsibility of members only). We returned home tired yet still with a sense that this could be the right place.
Having no 'phone we had to await the letter to tell me the outcome. I confess that I wondered how much prayer was happening - on both sides of this search for guidance. This has always bothered me because I know how easy it is for group think to occur when choosing a minister rather than God-think. When the letter arrived it confirmed that a majority of the members believed that I should become their next minister. All the leaders had voted Yes but 13 people had voted No and, much later on, some of them confided that they felt I was far too young to be taking on their complicated fellowship. However, the great majority said Yes and our hearts leapt for joy.
However, hearing this news my Area Superintendent tracked me down with urgency. He had heard that the previous minister was staying on in membership with his wife and family. Did I know that? Actually, I didn't. He told me how often a predecessor staying on could make trouble! Only a short time later he contacted me again: 'Forget what I said. I have just met your predecessor at our Area Superintendents' meeting - he is a marvellous man and my worries about you going to be with are groundless'. They did turn out to be groundless because he became a great friend and supporter.
You would think this guidance about my first church was now settled. Not so. A major crisis was yet to emerge.
Sunday, July 12, 2020
Honesty about guidance 9)
Apparently, the Blackburn church had heard several potential ministers preach but the congregation could not come to a decision about any of them. In their last meeting a member stood up and said: 'What about that young fella who came some weeks ago? Surprisingly there was enough enthusiasm for the meeting to propose that I return, this time with a squint to the ministry. And so, Mr. Newell had written inviting me on 30th. January 1972.
Just a day or two later the invitation to become minister of the Northampton church arrived. When I talk about guidance I often think back to the confusing mixture of emotions we experienced then. On one hand this Northampton church was generously expressing their commitment to me. But on the other hand Blackburn still stirred desire which did not have an obvious cause. It was still only a possibility with plenty of potential hazards. Yet, in prayer we felt we could not close it off.
With considerable nervousness I spoke to the Northampton church secretary. I told him the truth that another church that I had not expected to hear from had re-emerged. When I preached in Northampton I assumed this option was a dead-end - it would have been dishonest to have two-timed. Yet, now that this other church had reactivated its interest I told him I needed to resolve whether it was God's choice for me. My memory was that he was very understanding and allowed me to withdraw with good grace. But we were mightily confused. I wondered just what a risk we were taking.
Travelling back to Blackburn was serious this time. I still have notes from the sermons I preached and, frankly, I do not rate them very highly. The morning sermon on Acts 10:1-16 was entitled 'But Peter said "No". That could be prophetic! Still a strong sense remained that we were being drawn to this people though I knew some regarded me as far too young - and I shared that concern too!
Just a day or two later the invitation to become minister of the Northampton church arrived. When I talk about guidance I often think back to the confusing mixture of emotions we experienced then. On one hand this Northampton church was generously expressing their commitment to me. But on the other hand Blackburn still stirred desire which did not have an obvious cause. It was still only a possibility with plenty of potential hazards. Yet, in prayer we felt we could not close it off.
With considerable nervousness I spoke to the Northampton church secretary. I told him the truth that another church that I had not expected to hear from had re-emerged. When I preached in Northampton I assumed this option was a dead-end - it would have been dishonest to have two-timed. Yet, now that this other church had reactivated its interest I told him I needed to resolve whether it was God's choice for me. My memory was that he was very understanding and allowed me to withdraw with good grace. But we were mightily confused. I wondered just what a risk we were taking.
Travelling back to Blackburn was serious this time. I still have notes from the sermons I preached and, frankly, I do not rate them very highly. The morning sermon on Acts 10:1-16 was entitled 'But Peter said "No". That could be prophetic! Still a strong sense remained that we were being drawn to this people though I knew some regarded me as far too young - and I shared that concern too!
Thursday, July 9, 2020
Honesty about guidance 8)
Blackburn was not on the radar as the Area Superintendent put my name forward to a Baptist Church, in Northampton. This was much closer and I drove my motor-cycle to preach there. Obviously the congregation knew that I was a student seeking settlement - preaching with a squint. The lively congregation filled the building with all ages represented and the whole day was an encouraging one. Sadly, Carol had suffered a miscarriage and was unwell so was missing this episode.
Soon I received an invitation to preach with a view to becoming their minister. I realized that this could be it! God's will in action. The second visit included a Parade Service in which the church's Boys and Girls Brigades marched in with their colours. At the conclusion I was instructed to present appropriate flags before saying the Benediction, after which the brigades would process out. Hanging over the pulpit and communion table area was a glass lampshade. Taking the largest flag in an over generous sweep from its stand I hit this lampshade full on. Mercifully staying intact it made a significant clang while dislodging dust which gently floated down. Over mass giggling I said the Benediction - though you need to know that I maintained my dignity as best as I could.
As is the Baptist custom the church meeting conferred within a few days. Would they invite me with my obvious coordination gifts or not? I confess that I did not feel the same measure of excitement as visiting Blackburn and yet as we had kept praying we knew that excitement is not the only sign of guidance. The fact that Carol had been unable to share in these visits obviously dampened feelings too.
It still amazes me to think of the timing of what happened next. Just as I was waiting for a letter from Northampton another letter arrived. And, yes, it was from Blackburn!
Soon I received an invitation to preach with a view to becoming their minister. I realized that this could be it! God's will in action. The second visit included a Parade Service in which the church's Boys and Girls Brigades marched in with their colours. At the conclusion I was instructed to present appropriate flags before saying the Benediction, after which the brigades would process out. Hanging over the pulpit and communion table area was a glass lampshade. Taking the largest flag in an over generous sweep from its stand I hit this lampshade full on. Mercifully staying intact it made a significant clang while dislodging dust which gently floated down. Over mass giggling I said the Benediction - though you need to know that I maintained my dignity as best as I could.
As is the Baptist custom the church meeting conferred within a few days. Would they invite me with my obvious coordination gifts or not? I confess that I did not feel the same measure of excitement as visiting Blackburn and yet as we had kept praying we knew that excitement is not the only sign of guidance. The fact that Carol had been unable to share in these visits obviously dampened feelings too.
It still amazes me to think of the timing of what happened next. Just as I was waiting for a letter from Northampton another letter arrived. And, yes, it was from Blackburn!
Monday, July 6, 2020
Honesty about guidance 7)
Nothing happened for several weeks. Meanwhile a church in the North of England had fallen vacant because its minister had become Area Superintendent for the North West area of Baptist churches. One of its previous ministers Peter Lorkin (who I had met when visiting his church about a student mission) was convinced that I would be a good fit there. He wrote to friends at the church and suggested that I preach there. I remember a denominational leader once lamenting how few ministers God seemed to call to serve in the North of England. Certainly I had never thought of it.
I didn't expect much from this speculative prod. In fact, the whole idea of becoming minister of Leamington Road Baptist Church, Blackburn seemed absurd. This large church was the only Baptist church in this cathedral town of over 100,000 population and it inevitably contained a wide range of people. For us, it was set in a part of the country totally unknown with its own traditions and (sometimes strong) dialect. It seemed the unlikeliest possibility.
But, to my surprise I received an invitation to preach in October. My parents loaned us their van to travel up there to stay with the ultra formal secretary Frank Newell and his wife. After preaching at a full morning service, packed with children, we had lunch with them and afterwards he took the current Baptist Union Handbook he told me he was looking at the name of the next possible minister. I guess he thought it was the kindest way of letting me know the score!
Yet, very strangely, as Carol and I continued to meet people later that day and I preached again in the evening we felt a very strong pull to this place. We realized how unlikely it would be but half-hoped an encouraging follow-up letter would come. But none came as the weeks passed.
I didn't expect much from this speculative prod. In fact, the whole idea of becoming minister of Leamington Road Baptist Church, Blackburn seemed absurd. This large church was the only Baptist church in this cathedral town of over 100,000 population and it inevitably contained a wide range of people. For us, it was set in a part of the country totally unknown with its own traditions and (sometimes strong) dialect. It seemed the unlikeliest possibility.
But, to my surprise I received an invitation to preach in October. My parents loaned us their van to travel up there to stay with the ultra formal secretary Frank Newell and his wife. After preaching at a full morning service, packed with children, we had lunch with them and afterwards he took the current Baptist Union Handbook he told me he was looking at the name of the next possible minister. I guess he thought it was the kindest way of letting me know the score!
Yet, very strangely, as Carol and I continued to meet people later that day and I preached again in the evening we felt a very strong pull to this place. We realized how unlikely it would be but half-hoped an encouraging follow-up letter would come. But none came as the weeks passed.
Friday, July 3, 2020
Honesty about guidance 6)
By the end of the month, to our immense surprise and disappointment, we had both come to the decision that the call to John Bunyan, Cowley was not God's call. When a sense of unease takes away peace and in prayer awareness grows that something is not right you have to take it seriously. There was no obvious reason why we should decline this gracious generous invitation. We had really wanted to go there. No other church was on the horizon and the practical advantages seemed immense. It seemed an unnecessary risk, yet we knew I had to say no.
I remember going to the deacons' meeting on the evening that I promised my reply. I thought the meeting was at 7:30 pm but in fact they had met since 7:00 p.m. There was silence as I entered the room. I apologized to them that my news would not be positive and shared how waiting the month and praying about the call had led to us saying no. Quietly the secretary, wonderfully called Mr. Hope, thanked me. And I left sad yet convinced that it was the right decision.
As a sidebar when others heard about this they were annoyed. In the college the Dean was particularly aggressive. He said that I have been arrogant in rejecting this church and treated me with hostility right through my last year. Others were puzzled - but then so were we!. I had been so keen and yet in the end had felt guided to withdraw. To many it must have seemed that I had turned my back on glorious possibilities not just of service in Oxford but of developing my academic credentials. This is what I mean by being honest about guidance.
The Area Superintendent who helped settle Regent's student into ministry put my name into the national settlement system and we began the waiting. It was a very strange time.
I remember going to the deacons' meeting on the evening that I promised my reply. I thought the meeting was at 7:30 pm but in fact they had met since 7:00 p.m. There was silence as I entered the room. I apologized to them that my news would not be positive and shared how waiting the month and praying about the call had led to us saying no. Quietly the secretary, wonderfully called Mr. Hope, thanked me. And I left sad yet convinced that it was the right decision.
As a sidebar when others heard about this they were annoyed. In the college the Dean was particularly aggressive. He said that I have been arrogant in rejecting this church and treated me with hostility right through my last year. Others were puzzled - but then so were we!. I had been so keen and yet in the end had felt guided to withdraw. To many it must have seemed that I had turned my back on glorious possibilities not just of service in Oxford but of developing my academic credentials. This is what I mean by being honest about guidance.
The Area Superintendent who helped settle Regent's student into ministry put my name into the national settlement system and we began the waiting. It was a very strange time.
Wednesday, July 1, 2020
Honesty about guidance 5)
The next big crunch for guidance was obviously going to be which church was God calling me to as I completed my ministerial training. At the beginning of my three year course I had been placed in a local Oxford church - John Bunyan Baptist Church, Cowley. I was to serve alongside its minister Sidney Crowe. Its striking contemporary building could seat 300 people and average congregations more than half filled it with all ages represented. It was a wonderful opportunity to grow in preaching, lead the youth work and immerse in local church life. However, in my first year the minister, Sidney Crowe, announced that after 31 years serving this church he was shortly to retire. Supported by another ministerial student I was then invited to care for the church until a new minister was found.
As we approached our final year in college something happened that taught us both important lessons. Out of the blue the John Bunyan Church gave me an invitation to become their next minister. We were both absolutely thrilled. The church leadership declared that we could move immediately into the church manse for my last year at college and that they would not expect full ministry until my Final exams were over. Several commented how this would enable me to keep in touch with the college and some thought doctoral work would be part of the future deal. Just imagine - a new home with a people we had grown to love and the prospect of developing my academics for wider service. It seemed just perfect. Expecting our first baby in July we would be well settled instead of facing a move elsewhere.
We asked for a month to think and pray about this golden opportunity. We had not a single negative thought and were fairly sure that God was in it all. How could he not be? Yet we were concerned about presuming this neat next step was truly God's guidance. That month of prayer and questioning woke us up to the extraordinary dynamics of seeking God's will.
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As we approached our final year in college something happened that taught us both important lessons. Out of the blue the John Bunyan Church gave me an invitation to become their next minister. We were both absolutely thrilled. The church leadership declared that we could move immediately into the church manse for my last year at college and that they would not expect full ministry until my Final exams were over. Several commented how this would enable me to keep in touch with the college and some thought doctoral work would be part of the future deal. Just imagine - a new home with a people we had grown to love and the prospect of developing my academics for wider service. It seemed just perfect. Expecting our first baby in July we would be well settled instead of facing a move elsewhere.
We asked for a month to think and pray about this golden opportunity. We had not a single negative thought and were fairly sure that God was in it all. How could he not be? Yet we were concerned about presuming this neat next step was truly God's guidance. That month of prayer and questioning woke us up to the extraordinary dynamics of seeking God's will.
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